Loving U!

“To thine own self be true”-Shakespeare

It has taken me some years to LOVE who I am, to be the woman that I have come to be! My confidence wasn’t the best, self-esteem at its lowest…I didn’t LOVE MYSELF!

If I didn’t love myself, how could I love someone else? I was looking for love in all the wrong places, things, and people.

I felt like I wasn’t pretty enough, light enough, fine enough, thin enough, smart enough, I just wasn’t enough.  It was hard not being ENOUGH!

I was called all kinds of names as a child and it hurt, by family, by friends, by people who didn’t know me.

“Giraffe”, “anorexic”, “deep voice”, “big lips”, “beer bottle” just to name a few.

 

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It was very hurtful and they didn’t seem to care. They didn’t care how it made me feel, all they wanted was a laugh and it came at my expense. I remember being on the bus and someone had put some chicken bones in my hair. I was devastated, but I walked off the bus with my head held high. I cried later that night. I can recall a lot of hurtful and ugly things that have been said to me and about me.

I am almost 40 years old and I still recall those hurtful words. I know that as children we do and say some hurtful stuff to one another and we do not worry about how the person may feel.

I have learned to EMBRACE and LOVE myself! I understand that some people are paying big bucks to have the lips that I got! That “anorexic” part is long gone, now I am PHAT!  My voice is still the same. My neck is like Queen Nefertiti (whose name means “the beautiful one has come”).

nefertiti

I realized that I MUST LOVE MYSELF!

I AM UNIQUE!

I AM GOING TO BE ME!

 

 

Disclaimer:I do not own the rights to these pictures, did a Google Search!

Author: A PERFECTLY FLAWED RUBY!!!

I am Zeb's wife. Shabre, Zeb Jr., Ashleigh, and Jayla's mother! I am a God fearing woman! I am Ruby's daughter! I AM PERFECTLY FLAWED!

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